God gives grace for every assignment and strengthens those who are weak, I have heard these words frequently but hadn't grasped their full meaning.
Today is one of those days when I am thinking of my son who was born sleeping on the 28
th August in 2008, its amazing how much strength a human being has and one can never see that until one is put in a situation that calls for it.
Feelings of pain and grief well up inside of me and tears fill my eyes as I think of him as if it all happened just yesterday. I am reminded of how everyone in the family was excited and looking forward to his coming, the son and brother we all so longed for and had waited for ,but God had other plans for the family. I remember too how one Saturday morning I woke up and took a walk to Florida lake to do my devotions and exercises, As I was worshipping and meditating on God He put a song in my heart based on Psalm 46 that says even though the mountains fall I will stand in the power of His hand and I wil dwell in His heart of hearts. He also brought the scripture in Isaiah that says “Fear not for I am with you even though you pass through the waters they will not overwhelm you and if you pass through the fire it will not kindle upon you.”(paraphrased). As I thought over that afterwards I realized God had been preparing me for what was ahead, and was reassuring me that even though I may pass through dark times yet I am always in His heart, as He has loved me with an everlasting love. I remember too how one Sunday, almost a year later, I rendered an item in church, a song by a well-known gospel singer, the song basically says Lord take me , mould me and use me, as I give my life to the potter’s hand, that very week I had a miscarriage which tore my heart and my family’s heart apart as we were still trying to heal less than a year after Melchiel’s passing. While all of this was happening I could not understand why I felt such a strong presence of God that moves me to tears but afterwards as I looked back I realized it was because God was strengthening me and showing me what to come and saying “Fear not for I am with you”.
So today as I remember my beautiful som whom I never got ot hold or to kiss or play with I am also reminded of the love of God which surpasses understanding and which strengthens me in my weakest moment. I am reminded of how good God is, I do not presume to understand how He works but I know He always works everything for my good, even though it seems my life si falling apart. I may not understand why such things happen and why it happen to happen to me but one thing I know is He is holding me in the palm of His hand and had promised never to leave me nor forsake me. I may feel discouraged and sad, lonely and hopeless but He remains the lover of my soul and the hope of Glory.
You may be down and out and feel He has forgotten, but know that He holds you in the palm of his hand and will never let you go. He remains faithful even when we lose faith in Him.
