As we close yet another year

Dancing with Father God

Take my hand, and pull me close
I will keep my eyes locked on yours
And let the music of your love be my guide.
I will move to the rhythm of your heart
With my heart beating to your heartbeat
As you whisper in my ear, your song of love
I will abandon myself to you
And let you carry me
For I know,  every step I take is safe with you
I will not be afraid to fall
For I know you will catch me through it all
Through rain pouring and the sun shining
Our dance will go on,
For nothing can ever stop this rhythm
The rhythm of love everlasting and life evermore

Coming Out Of the Shell

'Instead of shame and dishonour, you will enjoy a double share of honour. You will possess a double portion of prosperity in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours.' Isaiah 61:7 One of the things I realized as being the reason why I hide my true self and opt for a airbrushed version is because I have a perfectionism mentality. I tend to want things to be 110% perfect otherwise not at all, and that is mostly things pertaining to my daily life. So I find myself choosing to hide the real self and present what I think is the perfect version, which off course is far from the truth as obviously that is a fake self, mostly because I assume people won't accept the imperfect me. *phlaah* A case in point is opening my house to outsiders, by which I mean people who are not part of my inner circle, family and close friends. Apart from being a zealous perfectionist I’m also a very private person, who finds it hard to let my guard down and invite people into my inner space, but that is a topic for another day. So being overtly private means I’m careful who I allow to scrutinize my personal life or invade my personal space and that includes coming into my house, because I always feel like I do not measure up to most people so I would rather stay out of their way. I’m realizing though that is foolishness because I am a unique individual with peculiar traits only I can exhibit, and trying to measure up to everyone does not help my cause, but instead makes me strive for a washed out version, which is not what God made me to be. Spending time looking for people’s approval has made me miss the important point which is that everyone has a path carved out by God and everyone is equipped differently for that path, so trying to invent a persona that people “will like” is choosing to ignore my uniqueness and try to be somebody else.

Finding myself

Lately I've been realising how much i hide the real me, honestly i have different versions of myself that i show to different people. Does that seem or sound strange to you,well for me it's a daily struggle. Sometimes i feel like I'm a schizophrenic person, not to belittle those affected by this condition, but the stories i tell to support my various versions of me do take their toll. Now I'm sure you realise I'm avoiding using the word lies because i don't believe i would be lying when i create a better version of myself for people's consumption, i just bend the truth a bit. Now you will agree with me that we all do this at one time or another,but what is the acceptable amount of airbrushing the truth allowed. I'm sure it varies from situation to situation ,anyway back to our story. In all that hiding the real me i realised one thing, by hiding my real self i am missing out on experiencing the real deal in the world. You see just like a half open flower cannot get the full impact of the rain or sun on its petals,in the same way only the exposed part of me gets to experience the world,while the parts i hide away miss out. With that realisation in mind I've set out to make sure i get the full impact of what life has in store for me. But how do i do that after so many years of hiding away parts that i felt were unattractive to the world,and those are the parts that need the air the most? I do not have a simple answer but I'm on a journey of self exposure and I'm sure i will learn valuable lessons that i will share.
1Corinthians 12v23-24 and the parts we think are less honourable we treat with special honour. 
And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, while our presentable parts need no special treatment. but 
God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honour to the parts that lacked it.

IT'S A BRAND NEW YEAR!!!

It's the start of yet another year, the old one is gone with its successes and failures, it's time to turn the page, to start afresh on a blank slate, to write again your destiny. It's time to make new memories, new mistakes, learn new lessons and reach new heights.
Here is to a great year ahead, from this lady here.
More love...!!!