Motherhood and mother's day...!!!

With the past weekend being flooded with Mother's day messages and jokes around mothers etc, I got thinking of my own mother and my childhood. As a child I know I didn’t really give much thought to what a mother goes through especially on the inside concerning her children. She was someone who was there and provided what I needed when I needed it, and was a person who didn’t understand me, my feelings etc. She didn’t have needs or feelings as far as I was concerned. As I grew older I started thinking and blaming my mother for every thing I thought was wrong with me which I reasoned was due to my upbringing, I figured if she had done things differently or been a different person then I wouldn’t be what or who I am today. It is only now that I’m older and my eldest is now an adolescent that Im beginning to embrace and appreciate the full aspect of what my mother is and what she goes through even now as a mother ,even though we are all grown women with children. My journey as a mother began some 20 years ago when I was just a child myself and never understood the full implication or weight of bringing another human being to the world, and as the years have gone by I have grown in that role and have come to enjoy it and learn from each day as I mother these children God entrusted to me. Some days I feel like I’m not doing enough for my children and its as if im letting them down somehow, that’s when I feel like I am a disappointment to them and wish I could do more or do things differently, but even in that I realize I am who I am and as I learn daily I also improve as I go along. Some days on the other hand, I feel like im getting this mothering thing right and deserve a medal…’AHEM”… I am learning though that hard as the job maybe, being a mother is not something you go to school for and no one tells you if you are doing it right or wrong, its mostly a matter of instinct and trusting that what you are doing will yield the best results and produce well-rounded individuals who are an asset to the society as a whole. I’m also learning that being a mother is more than just giving birth to the children, it involves impacting future generations, and its not just about words spoken, its about the life you lead, the daily interactions and the unspoken behaviors that mark our days. Sometimes when I’m in the doldrums and feeling like I’m failing my children, I wonder if my mother ever felt like that and how did she deal with it, and those are the times that my appreciation for her is multiplied as I realize the immensity of the task every mother has. Read a quote recently that said “A man’s job is from sunrise to sunset, but a mother’s job is never done”. This tells me that even though your children may be adults with their own families and lives to lead, as a mother you do not let them go, I know for a fact my own mother still prays for us her children daily and that she still worries and cares about our daily lives even though we are hundreds of miles away from her.This is to all mothers, even though you may feel you work so hard and get little appreciation,( I know I feel like that at times J) be steadfast and never lose hard because your labor is not in vain